I am prone to moments of euphoria these days. Sitting here in my quiet house with sunshine coming through the windows and my baby moving around in my belly I feel delirious, happy, breathlessly excited about my life. When I am overcome with these sweet fleeting moments a part of me panics. All the years of heart ache and depression trained me to fear the highs. Slowly that is thawing. More and more each day I am allowing the happiness in, allowing myself to fall in love with my life again.
Oh, and no baby yet. We are visiting the doctor today for a check up. All the bike riding and walking hasn't been enough to convince her to arrive yet so I will probably start a round of acupuncture to attempt to induce labor.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
Still Waiting
So we passed the "first" due date and tomorrow is the due date our midwife is focused on. Still waiting for the babe to arrive and the waiting has been pleasant. I'm enjoying time off from work, resting lots and talking with the baby. She is as active as she has been this whole time so hopefully she isn't too cramped in there. If I had to guess I think it will be another week before we meet her. Funny when I say that I feel like I am daring fate to show me up and break my water right here as I am typing. So far it hasn't happened.......and..........still hasn't happened.
Our Internet was down all weekend which has been torture. Not only am I an Internet addict but this big belly makes it even harder to pursue other interests. I am very happy these days sitting in a chair with my feet propped up reading all the blogs I love. Sigh. I am at the local coffee shop using their wireless and ours should be up and running as soon as Scott gets home tonight and enters some "special" code the company gave me this morning to reset our modem.
We decided to get me a lovely bike to decrease our use of the two cars. I am feeling very confident about this choice and excited to make an effort to drive less. We went to Clever Cycles which is a local bike shop that specializes in family transportation. The people there were so helpful and wonderful and hooked us up with a great bike at an incredibly low price. I've been riding my bike (nickname: The Copper Penny) every day since then. Nice little jaunts around my neighborhood feel great on my hips and it is nice to expand my lungs and work my leg muscles without the impact of walking. When I ride Penny Scott says I have a shit eating grin the whole time. I love it and feel like one lucky lady to have such a beautiful machine. We will take pictures of it eventually, for now here is a stock Internet photo of the lovely.
Our Internet was down all weekend which has been torture. Not only am I an Internet addict but this big belly makes it even harder to pursue other interests. I am very happy these days sitting in a chair with my feet propped up reading all the blogs I love. Sigh. I am at the local coffee shop using their wireless and ours should be up and running as soon as Scott gets home tonight and enters some "special" code the company gave me this morning to reset our modem.
We decided to get me a lovely bike to decrease our use of the two cars. I am feeling very confident about this choice and excited to make an effort to drive less. We went to Clever Cycles which is a local bike shop that specializes in family transportation. The people there were so helpful and wonderful and hooked us up with a great bike at an incredibly low price. I've been riding my bike (nickname: The Copper Penny) every day since then. Nice little jaunts around my neighborhood feel great on my hips and it is nice to expand my lungs and work my leg muscles without the impact of walking. When I ride Penny Scott says I have a shit eating grin the whole time. I love it and feel like one lucky lady to have such a beautiful machine. We will take pictures of it eventually, for now here is a stock Internet photo of the lovely.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Tomorrow
So tomorrow is the due date, depending on who you talk to. We have actually been given two due dates Jan. 31st and Feb 2nd. At this point the baby is trending toward the February date. That could change of course but as of the moment it seems she has no intention of arriving by tomorrow.
The last few days have been spent doing much walking and bike riding. Mostly it feels good to walk as long as I have someone's arm to hang onto. All the prelabor symptoms I was feeling have faded and I've only had two noticeable contractions in the last week. This whole time I've assumed I would go into labor slowly with lots of notice and now I'm beginning to wonder if it's gonna come out of nowhere like a runaway train.
All that said I'm feeling surprisingly calm and content. I have yet to reach that point where I feel done and just want to have the baby. I've been lucky to have a pretty comfortable pregnancy and while it will be nice to touch my toes again I do love being pregnant. So every day I wake up wondering if this will be the day that I am over being pregnant. I'm pretty sure that is a necessary point to arrive at in order to mentally prepare for labor. Hmmmm....
The great amassing of resources continues here as we are focusing on covering our needs so we will be set when the baby arrives. A few days ago we took a trip to Costco and stocked up on our pantry provisions, chicken broth, canned beans, etc. I now have everything I need to make a soup on the fly which is a good feeling. Scott stopped by Trader Joe's and stocked up on dried nuts and mineral water. I feel like squirrels stashing our booty for the winter.
The last few days have been spent doing much walking and bike riding. Mostly it feels good to walk as long as I have someone's arm to hang onto. All the prelabor symptoms I was feeling have faded and I've only had two noticeable contractions in the last week. This whole time I've assumed I would go into labor slowly with lots of notice and now I'm beginning to wonder if it's gonna come out of nowhere like a runaway train.
All that said I'm feeling surprisingly calm and content. I have yet to reach that point where I feel done and just want to have the baby. I've been lucky to have a pretty comfortable pregnancy and while it will be nice to touch my toes again I do love being pregnant. So every day I wake up wondering if this will be the day that I am over being pregnant. I'm pretty sure that is a necessary point to arrive at in order to mentally prepare for labor. Hmmmm....
The great amassing of resources continues here as we are focusing on covering our needs so we will be set when the baby arrives. A few days ago we took a trip to Costco and stocked up on our pantry provisions, chicken broth, canned beans, etc. I now have everything I need to make a soup on the fly which is a good feeling. Scott stopped by Trader Joe's and stocked up on dried nuts and mineral water. I feel like squirrels stashing our booty for the winter.
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